Like a polite dinner party guest, midlife always brings a little something for the host. It doesn’t always feel like a gift or a blessing, but the lessons from midlife are better than a nice bottle of red.
Sure, it brings its rowdy, cringey cousins with it too – those creaky joints, the existential dread and the perimenopausal rage – you can’t avoid them. Come one, come all, apparently.
But once the chaos has settled and you’ve had a moment to breathe, you realise midlife didn’t just show up to cause drama. It brought insight along too.
One of the gifts it’s handed me – between the hot flushes and the sudden urge to rearrange my entire life – is a finely tuned knowledge of myself.
Not in a smug, “I’ve got it all figured out” kind of way. More like: I’ve finally stopped pretending not to know the things I already know.
So, here’s where I’m at. Not the definitive truth. Not the final word. These are the things I know for sure in midlife (right now).
1. I am allowed to want more, even when I already have a lot.
It’s admirable – and deeply human – to remind yourself that others have it worse when you’re going through something hard. That instinct serves a purpose. It helps with perspective and can anchor you when the waves come.
But we’ve overused it. And I think women, in particular, have been trained to downplay their pain in deference to others’.
I’ve literally had someone stand in front of me and explain how much worse they had it – while I was in the thick of something painful myself.
It’s one thing to find your own silver linings when you’re ready to start picking yourself up. It’s another thing entirely to have someone shove gratitude down your throat like a moral multivitamin.
We’re guilted into lowering our expectations.
Into believing we should be satisfied with less.
Into thinking ambition is greedy or ungrateful.
But gratitude and ambition can absolutely live in the same house.
You can be thankful for what you have and still want more.
One holds the fort. The other paints the walls.
2. I don’t have to feel ready to begin.
I had no business starting this blog earlier this year.
Yes, I’d always wanted to be a writer. Yes, I knew I could write – I was literally doing it every day in my day job. But still, I didn’t feel like “a writer” (whatever the hell that’s supposed to feel like).
Even now, I catch myself thinking I have no business asking people to read my words. Hoping they resonate. Inviting them to join my mailing list (ahem!).
Who am I to put myself out there and expect anyone to like what I’m doing? Why on Earth would people want to consume my burnt offerings?
But along came one of the lessons from midlife – if I stay in my head, I’ll never feel ready.
So, I made a deal with myself: I’d just start. And I’d be consistent – for one year.
That was the promise. One year out of my whole life to see if I enjoy it, see if it resonates, see if anyone gives a toss.
I wasn’t ready. I was terrified. Of people hating my work, of no one reading, of being laughed at behind my back.
But I began anyway.
3. Peace is expensive. But it’s worth the cost.
Sometimes, peace costs you something – a relationship, a role, a routine. Sometimes the thing you’re clinging to for comfort is the very thing stealing your peace.
It might be familiar. It might even be functional. But if it’s keeping you stuck, silenced, or small, it’s not peace. It’s just a padded cage.
In my (almost) 46 years, this is one thing I’ve learnt: Peace doesn’t come from everything staying predictable and comfortable.
Peace comes from living in alignment with who you really are – and what you really want. And, if that wasn’t enough, who you are and what you really want will change over time.
That shit is a moving target, babe.
So “alignment peace” is not passive. And it takes courage to put a marker down and aggressively chase your peace.
Chasing alignment means first figuring out what you value. What you stand for. What you’re no longer willing to tolerate.
This is a bigger conversation that deserves its own space.
(Watch out for a whole post on alignment. I’m coming back to this because it’s one of the key lessons from midlife.)
4. My body is not a problem to fix.
It’s taken me years (and years, and then some) to stop treating my body like a renovation project. Something to “fix”, to shrink, to tone, to tame. Like it was somehow letting me down just by existing as it is.
But my body is not a problem. It’s where I live. It carries me. It’s not me, but it tells the story of every version of me I’ve ever been – in skin, in scars, in stretch marks and stiffness.
It’s not perfect. It doesn’t need to be. It’s doing its best with the life I’m living.
And when I treat it with kindness – when I stretch, rest, nourish, breathe – everything works a little better.
Physically. Emotionally. Spiritually.
It’s not about loving every inch all the time. It’s about learning to listen, respect, and co-exist.
5. Joy is in the small things.
Silly things matter. More than we give them credit for. Not in a “Pinterest inspiration quote” kind of way – in an “absolutely central to survival” kind of way.
The joy is in the tiny, ridiculous moments.
A good cup of coffee at the right temperature. Singing your lungs out to that embarrassing 2000s pop song you swear you hate. The kind of meme that makes you laugh-snort alone in your kitchen.
Soft socks. Cozy trackies. The world-weary sigh of a dog with zero responsibilities. Buying the fancy peanut butter just because you bloody well can.
At my day job, laughter is our love language. We work hard, we play hard, and we refuse to go eight hours without a proper giggle. Some days it’s the sweat-inducing, paralysing laughter of a group of people who have lost any and all control. But, look, we like each other, we like our jobs and we like to have fun. Nothing wrong with that.
These things aren’t distractions. They’re anchors. They keep you tethered to delight, to yourself, to right now.
In the relative drudgery of day-to-day living, it’s easy to forget to find joy. It’s easy to lose yourself to the laundry, the cooking and the cleaning.
One of the lessons from midlife if that joy isn’t indulgent. It’s intelligent. It keeps me afloat when nothing else can.
6. Timing is everything.
Call it divine timing. Call it paying your dues. Call it not being quite ready until you are. Whatever you name it, I’ve learned this: things tend to happen when they’re meant to.
I couldn’t have launched this blog (and stuck with it for seven months and counting) any earlier than I did.
I needed time.
Time to learn some hard things. Time to unlearn a few worse ones. Time to grow into the version of myself who could finally say, “This is mine. And I’m doing it.”
It wouldn’t have worked 10 years ago. Or even five.
We’re all running our own races – but truthfully, it’s not even a race. There are no pacers. There’s no stop-watch. No finish line.
Just us, doing the best we can with what we’ve got, learning what we need to learn on the way to who we’re becoming.
Don’t let anyone tell you it’s “too late.” Fuck those guys.
I’m not behind (and neither are you). I’m not too old (and neither are you). I’m not running out of time (and neither are you).
This isn’t a race. It’s a breadcrumb trail. And I’m following mine … crumb by crumb.
7. I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up … and that’s okay.
Honestly, I thought I’d have it all figured out by now. The dream job, the tidy title, the five-year plan with colour-coded tabs.
Instead, I have questions. Curiosity. A few bruises. And a strong coffee habit.
But here are some lessons from midlife I’ve learnt:
Curiosity is better than certainty.
Flexibility is better than a fixed plan.
And change?
Change is not failure – it’s absolutely compulsory.
I’m allowed to pivot. To outgrow things. To try something new just because it feels right. I don’t owe anyone a perfectly linear path. Least of all myself.
Maybe I’ll reinvent myself again next year. Maybe I won’t. Maybe this website is just the beginning of something I can’t even see yet.
Whatever it is – I’m open. And right now, that feels like success.
(Subject to change without notice)
That’s what I know for sure. Not forever, not universally, not written in stone.
Just for now. Just for me.
Next week I might know more. Or less. Or differently. But I trust that when the time comes, I’ll know what I need to know – just like I do now.
And that feels like enough.
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